Friday 8 February 2013

good old days

sesungguhnya jalan ini penuh onak dan berduri
tanpa hamparan dan permaidani
penamatnya hanya mati

i really missed the good old days. true enough. its an addiction. once you have tasted it, you will never be able to forget the sweetness of it. and no matter what you will keep on trying to find that inner happiness again that makes your life complete. it makes your heart swell with happiness and contentment with every little good things.

true happiness is not about having what u want but wanting what you have, i read it somewhere,cant remember from whom

in short its about being thankful,qanaah, bersyukur,puas dengan yang sedikit

mashaAllah, sungguh Allah telah melimpahkan nikmat yang besar pada mereka yang Allah jadikan hati mereka itu hati2 yang sentiasa bersyukur..

masa mendengar ikim siang tadi, ustaz menceritakan bagaimana seorang hamba Allah yang hidupnya penuh kesusahan di dunia, tetapi dengan takdir Allah masuk syurga, setelah dia merasa nikmat syurga, apabila ditanya apakah engkau pernah merasa kesusahan.maka dia menjawab, sungguh aku tak pernah langsung merasa apa2 kesusahan. mashaAllah, dia boleh lupa segala keperitan didunia setelah merasa nikmat syurga yang tak  terbanding

dan seorang hamba yang hidup penuh nikmat di dunia, tetapi ditakdirkan Allah ke neraka, kerana dosa yg dilakukan,setelah merasa dasyatnya neraka, apabila ditanya apakah engkau pernah merasa nikmat? maka dia menjawab sungguh aku tak pernah merasa nikmat langsung. itulah keperitan neraka dan dasyatnya membuatkan manusia lupa segala macam nikmat yg pernah dinikmati di dunia dahulu..

dan nikmat Allah juga membuatkan manusia ini lama2 akan lupa kesedihan, penderitaan di bumi, so that they can go on.

but some people dont let go. they dwell on the hurt and pain. itu merosakkan hati, membinasakan jiwa. to forgive and forget is for your own benefit not to those who have hurt you.

everytime the painful memories came, ignore it and push it away. dont allow yourself to think about it, to feel the sorrow and pain once again as though it happened yesterday. there are so many good things in life

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do
not see the one which has been opened for us.- Helen Keller
 
the prophet says, forgive those who wrong you, give to those who with hold form you and keep relations with those who cut theirs with you. 

Sunday 27 January 2013

my daughter

there is no point telling people how much i love my daughter because every mother will love their children more than they love themselves. They are part of you.whatever happened to them, u feel it too.whatever being said about them, u are affected too.

sometimes i would have been so tempted of wanting to work. but there is always this part of me unable to let my daughter go and taken care by strangers. Its not just because im worried, i just couldnt bear seeing her being so sad and crying. what about didikan?who's gonna teach her values?who's gonna hug and comfort her when she cries? who's gonna build her self esteem.

the undeniable truth is that the best person to take care of your children is the mother. there's no doubt about that. people say its about quality not quantity. but how can i ensure quality when there is so little time that i spend with her everyday. it just breaks my heart thinking about it. as much as she bond with me, that is just as much i feel attached to her. i just couldnt leave her. ill be thinking about her all day long and feel miserable and wouldnt be able to do a single thing but wanting to go home quick. whats the point of working if you have such attitude. you wont be a good worker isnt it?

its more worrying if i left her to some indonesian maid or burma maid who are non muslims.or to the people who has no faith. even if they are kind and loving they wont be able to love and care for her as much as i do. and to educate,nurture her the way that i wanted. Who would be patience enough to feed someone for hours, who are running around, who keep on spilling food. no body would be patient but the mother. Who would be patience enough to stands all the mischiveousness but the mother.who would want to kiss her hundreds time a day but the mother. who would have wanted to play with her all day long but the mother.

may Allah give me the wisdom to make the right choice..to enjoy the true blessings and not to keep on craving for the deceiving worldly materials...

i remember prof muhaya once said, a woman who has a husband and children, then she has sebanyak-banyaknye nikmat..it is indeed Allah's blessing upon us, so be thankful..alhamdulillah..

jiwa yang tenteram

ubat hati ade 5
1. solat malam
2.berpuasa
3. berkumpul dengan org soleh
4.membaca al quran
5. zikir malam berpanjangan

Allah berfirman yang bermaksud: "Iaitu orang yang beriman dan hati mereka menjadi tenteram dengan mengingat Allah. Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenteram." (Surah ar-Ra'd, ayat 28)

its true how did we really remember Allah every minute that passed. Its for our own benefits that we remember him. Allah doesnt need. He is The Most Exalted. we need to remember him to keep in tranquility and to free ourselves from worries,jealousy, sadness, regret, when we are thinking of other things that happened in our lives.

Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang beriman, mengerjakan amal soleh, mendirikan sembahyang dan menunaikan zakat, mereka mendapat pahala di sisi Tuhannya. Tidak ada kekhuatiran terhadap mereka dan tidak (pula) mereka bersedih hati.” (Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 277)

“Dan tidaklah Kami mengutus para rasul itu melainkan untuk memberi kabar gembira dan memberi peringatan. Barang siapa yang beriman dan mengadakan perbaikan, maka tak ada kekhuatiran terhadap mereka dan tidak (pula) mereka bersedih hati.” (Surah Al-An’am ayat 48)

“(Tidak demikian) bahkan barang siapa yang menyerahkan diri kepada Allah, sedang ia berbuat kebajikan, maka baginya pahala pada sisi Tuhannya dan tidak ada kekhuatiran terhadap mereka dan tidak (pula) mereka bersedih hati.” (Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 112)

Masha Allah,there are so many verses in the quran ,how Allah promised that true believers will never be stricken with sadness and worries that may later develop into depression like so many cases in today's world.

 Dan janganlah kamu iri hati terhadap apa yang dikurniakan Allah kepada sebahagian kamu lebih banyak dari sebahagian yang lain. (Kerana) bagi orang lelaki ada bahagian dari pada apa yang mereka usahakan, dan bagi para wanita (pun) ada bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan, dan mohonlah kepada Allah sebagian dari kurnia-Nya. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu" (An-Nisa' : 32)

Al Quran is complete with the answers for everything that happened to us. Its up to us to used it as our guidance or not...

 

Friday 25 January 2013

redha dengan ketentuan Nya

Tiada berlaku sesuatu bencana yang terjadi di atas muka bumi ini, atau ke atas diri kamu, melainkan yang demikian itu telah tercatat di dalam kitab (azal) sebeum kami laksanakan terjadinya. Sesungguhnya demikian itu bagi Allah mudah sekali. Supaya kamu tidak berdukacita terhadap apa-apa yang terlepas dari tanganmu, dan tidak bangga pula dengan apa-apa yang diberikannya oleh kamu, dan Allah tidak menyintai orang yang sombong dan membanggakan dirinya'
Surah al-Hadid; 22-23

Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan "Kami telah beriman" sedangkan mereka tidak akan diuji lagi.'
Surah al-Ankabut; 2

'Janganlah kamu berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah, sebab sesungguhnya tidak akan berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah melainkan orang kafir sahaja.'
Surah Yusuf; 87




“Ya Tuhanku, sesungguhnya tulangku telah lemah dan kepalaku telah ditumbuhi uban, dan aku belum pernah kecewa dalam berdoa kepada Engkau, ya Tuhanku. Dan sesungguhnya aku khawatir terhadap mawaliku sepeninggalku, sedang istriku adalah seorang yang mandul, maka anugerahilah aku dari sisi Engkau seorang putra, yang akan mewarisi aku dan mewarisi sebahagian keluarga Ya’qub; dan jadikanlah ia, ya Tuhanku, seorang yang diridai”.

Dan sesiapa yang bertakwa kepada Allah nescaya dijadikan baginya jalan keluar.
65-3:  Dan memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tiada disangka-sangkanya. Dan sesiapa yang bertawakal kepada Allah nescaya Dia (Allah) akan mencukupkannya. Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya. Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap-tiap sesuatu. (surah talaq)

"Sungguh hebat keadaan orang mukmin, mereka sentiasa berkeadaan baik. Tidak terjadi yang demikian itu kecuali pada diri orang mukmin. Jika ia mendapat kesenangan ia bersyukur, hal ini adalah kebaikan. Dan jika ia ditimpa kesusahan ia bersabar, itu juga adalah kebaikan." (Hadis riwayat Imam Muslim).

Tanda redha ada tiga.
Pertama adalah kata yang baik ketika menerima ujian Allah. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun (Kami adalah milik Allah dan kepada Allah kami akan dikembalikan). Bukan sumpah seranah dan maki hamun rasa tak puas hati.
Kedua, ketika susah ingatlah dengan nikmat Allah yang banyak. Di situ anda akan berasa beruntung dengan apa yang ada pada diri.
Ketiga, ikhtiar jangan berhenti. Redha bukan bermakna menerima tanpa usaha. Itu adalah putus asa dan pesimis namanya. Tapi redha adalah semangat yang membangkitkan hati yang sedih, yang menajamkan akal fikiran, menguatkan hentakan kaki dan membuahkan idea yang bernas untuk berjaya. Jadilah orang yang bahagia dengan kekuatan yang tersimpan dalam mustika yang bernama redha kepada Allah.

its time to leave the past behind and move forward.what's done is done. Its not what you had done,its what you gonna do. 

Even Rasulullah never asked his companions, why you did that?why you didnt do that?
feeling regret of what you had done in the past is not gonna make the future better, in fact it left you feeling remorse and guilt,and how you wish you had done it differently and imagining how it would be if you had done things differently and everything would have been different.

Its not right to dwell in the past. because as muslims we believe that everything that happened to us ada hikmahnya. if it is because of our sin that we make mistakes in this life then we should seek forgiveness and pray to Allah that he will grant something better, even better than what you have lost.

recite the doa ; ya allah,kurniakanlah aku kesabaran dalam menghadapi musibah ini dan berilah ganti yg lebih baik'

imagine how ummu salamah get replacement of rasulullah as a husband,Allah indeed gave her something so much better, kekasih Allah.mashaAllah,

more important is that whatever you are feeling sad about is only the worldly material that dont last. Aim for the akhirat and Allah, then it will give you life.when your  heart is going astray this is when you started wanting this life. increase your ibadah and cleanse your heart.pray and pray and pray that ALlah will guide you and give you strength to strive in His way.



Wednesday 23 January 2013

bila nur melimpah di hati

bila nur melimpah di hati
manusia itu bangun
dari alam kegelapan
ibarat mata yang berseri

i feel like crying when listening to this song. How i wished that i was the person who nur melimpah di hati, and the one who has risen up ,who moves towards the light and leaving the darkness behind like what i thought i did years ago. but now im not sure where im at. its just scary to think if im still those who lose their way in the darkness searching for the light and be steadfast. To remain still and not to be tempted again and again with this worldly desire.

The journey of finding the truth is mujahadah in each breath that you take. It is a mujahadah to fight the nafs.but its not easy to do. I have to pray everyday that Allah will give me the strength to be in the group of those who wins the battle of temptation and in the battle of dunya.

Bila sunnah dan quran didaulatkan
ketika itu jiwa dikorbankan
harta kemewahan dan jiwa dilaburkan
demi untuk agama kebenaran

those who are in this group, Allah has cleanse their heart, and make it free from whisper of syaitan and from being deceived with the dunia. They are indeed winners in this world and in the hereafter. They are indeed the luckiest. Indeed Allah guide those he wished to guide.

I remembered reading this book where in the verse of the quran it stated that disbelievers are like those in the depth of the sea, he was in total darkness covered by waves on top of waves. remarkably, it was proven in science that in the very deep in sea, too deep that there will be total darkness and that light wont be able to penetrate.

And on the surface there are 2 types of wave, the visible waves we see on the surface  and the other wave beneath the water that actually move in different direction. its called external and internal waves. How beautiful Allah has describe, how lost are non believers like in the depth of sea in which he was in total darkness, at the very depth of sea plus cover by waves on top of waves. he couldnt even see his own hands. And only Allah can guide whom he wants.

Dan tetaplah memberi peringatan, karena sesungguhnya peringatan itu bermanfa’at bagi orang-orang yang beriman." (Adh-Dhariyat~51:55)

"Oleh itu berilah peringatan (kepada umat manusia dengan ajaran Al-Quran), kalau-kalau peringatan itu berguna (dan sudah tentu berguna). (9) Kerana orang yang takut (melanggar perintah Allah) akan menerima peringatan itu. (10) Dan (sebaliknya) orang yang sangat celaka akan menjauhinya. (11) (Al-A'la~87:9-11)


ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ وَتَطۡمَٮِٕنُّ قُلُوبُهُم بِذِكۡرِ ٱللَّهِ‌ۗ أَلَا بِذِڪۡرِ ٱللَّهِ تَطۡمَٮِٕنُّ ٱلۡقُلُوبُ
"[yaitu] orang-orang yang beriman dan hati mereka menjadi tenteram dengan mengingati Allah. Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingat Allah-lah hati menjadi tenteram." (Al-Rad~13:28)
 
 mereka itu adalah dari orang-orang yang Kami beri hidayah petunjuk dan Kami pilih. Apabila dibacakan kepada mereka ayat-ayat (Allah) Ar-Rahman, mereka segera sujud serta menangis.(maryam 58)