my daughter

there is no point telling people how much i love my daughter because every mother will love their children more than they love themselves. They are part of you.whatever happened to them, u feel it too.whatever being said about them, u are affected too.

sometimes i would have been so tempted of wanting to work. but there is always this part of me unable to let my daughter go and taken care by strangers. Its not just because im worried, i just couldnt bear seeing her being so sad and crying. what about didikan?who's gonna teach her values?who's gonna hug and comfort her when she cries? who's gonna build her self esteem.

the undeniable truth is that the best person to take care of your children is the mother. there's no doubt about that. people say its about quality not quantity. but how can i ensure quality when there is so little time that i spend with her everyday. it just breaks my heart thinking about it. as much as she bond with me, that is just as much i feel attached to her. i just couldnt leave her. ill be thinking about her all day long and feel miserable and wouldnt be able to do a single thing but wanting to go home quick. whats the point of working if you have such attitude. you wont be a good worker isnt it?

its more worrying if i left her to some indonesian maid or burma maid who are non muslims.or to the people who has no faith. even if they are kind and loving they wont be able to love and care for her as much as i do. and to educate,nurture her the way that i wanted. Who would be patience enough to feed someone for hours, who are running around, who keep on spilling food. no body would be patient but the mother. Who would be patience enough to stands all the mischiveousness but the mother.who would want to kiss her hundreds time a day but the mother. who would have wanted to play with her all day long but the mother.

may Allah give me the wisdom to make the right choice..to enjoy the true blessings and not to keep on craving for the deceiving worldly materials...

i remember prof muhaya once said, a woman who has a husband and children, then she has sebanyak-banyaknye nikmat..it is indeed Allah's blessing upon us, so be thankful..alhamdulillah..